I'm not going to lie...I'm nervous for this tournament. I have 2 weeks until I leave for El Salvador. The South Americans are known for a style of judo that's called "dropping". They basically drop to their knees, get in between and under your legs, then pull you over their back. It is my kryptonite. (There's a picture of it below)
Coming back from Nationals, I got a rude awakening about the different styles of judo that are out there. As I mentioned in my previous post, the quickness, aggressiveness, and lack of gripping threw me off. I'm definitely not used to that. What intimidates me a little is the fact that South Americans are WAAAY better at drop seoi nage (the drop) and are more aggressive than anyone I've faced before. Needless to say, I'm nervous. On a positive note, my weight is good. I've been waking up right on weight (105.8lbs). Considering I haven't been eating the healthiest and I haven't been working out nearly as much as I should be, I'm rather surprised at how good my weight is. |
I guess what else makes me nervous is the fact that, like I mentioned, I haven't been training nearly as much as I should be. There have been a lot of changes and distractions in my personal life that have thrown me off my judo game a bit. Work, life, finances....the norm. It's hard to separate everything else that's going on in my life with judo. Most days, I'm so exhausted after work and from the other stressors in my life, that I have zero energy left for judo. It probably doesn't help that I haven't been able to sleep much at night. My brain won't shut off; it won't let me relax! A bit frustrating. That's why coffee has been my savior at work! "Venti Starbucks coffee? Large Dunkin Donuts coffee?" Why, yes please!!
So, as you can probably see...I'm just like everyone else in this world. I get tired, scared, sore, exhausted, frustrated, nervous, side-tracked...the list goes on and on. In case you thought athletes are immune to feelings of insecurity or lack of confidence. The only difference between me and most people; I just happen to be flying around the world, trying to fight girls. ;) Anyways, thanks for letting me vent. I needed to get that off my chest. :)
So, as you can probably see...I'm just like everyone else in this world. I get tired, scared, sore, exhausted, frustrated, nervous, side-tracked...the list goes on and on. In case you thought athletes are immune to feelings of insecurity or lack of confidence. The only difference between me and most people; I just happen to be flying around the world, trying to fight girls. ;) Anyways, thanks for letting me vent. I needed to get that off my chest. :)